Saturday, January 19, 2013

Resolute Resolutions: Finding Balance in 2013

Once again it seems that I have all but vanished from the world of WordPress.  Truth be told, soon after the New Year, I returned to work after a lovely three week-ish break and have been moving non-stop since then.  My readers who are in education will also appreciate the difficulty that is the end of term coupled with the dipartite horrors of accreditation visits (and the requisite report writing) and university articulation reports.  Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE to write reports and be involved in the administrivia of my school . . . it’s just really draining. Which leads me to the subject of this post: my New Year’s Resolution!

Yes, I know that this is a belated New Year’s Resolution post given that we’re now closer to February; however, I’ve a reason for my tardiness.  Count me as quirky (which, odds are, you do already), but I never like to make my New Year’s Resolution(s) before the new year has struck; there are many reasons for this.  First, I like to make sure the new year has “stuck;” this is the same illogical reason why I never flip the calendar over until a couple of days into the next month.  Basically, I want to make sure, I don’t know . . . the apocalypse doesn’t hit, or something?

Secondly, I want to informally take stock of the previous year and give a good think as to what changes I want to make to my life.  Sometimes this process takes a couple of days (as it did this year), sometimes it takes a good month.  In any event, I don’t rush into making resolutions because I do take them seriously.  Further, I prefer to begin my resolution work in February which gives me all of January-- a cold and disconcerting month if there ever was one!-- so I have time to work into making these changes rather than beginning on January 1st.  Many people fail in the resolutions (goodness knows I have!) that I try to give mine a fighting chance.  So, wisely or unwisely, I don’t *officially* start my changes till February.

Now, you might be thinking, after all of these qualifications, what does Sunny Jim want to change in her life?  Well, I’d like to work at achieving balance in my life.

I’ll be turning thirty in March and, to be perfectly honest, I’ll be glad to leave my twenties behind.  As many of my fellow millennials can attest (what’s up Lena Dunham!), the past decade has been a clusterfuck of disappointment: we’re all terribly in debt after college and grad school and either underemployed or still working our way up the professional ladder, rungs below where we always expected we would be.  After years of struggle and sadness, I managed to find some stability and do some personal healing last year.  I’m doing well professionally and feeling as though I am in a good place personally.

Yet, despite these personal improvements, I still feel like I have work to do.  I still don’t eat as well as I should, socialize as much as I (so I am told) need to, or have days that are filled with things other than work or home.  I need to find balance, I need to feel both fulfilled and rejuvenated, I need to not disappear from my blog because I am throwing myself into my work for weeks at a time.  Frankly, I need to take better care of MYSELF now that I am in a better place to do so.

When you’re young and don’t have as many responsibilities weighing on you, it’s easier to get your priorities out of whack.  Really, that sort of imbalance is requisite for professional success-- how can you expect to get ahead in your field unless you are willing to sacrifice your time and your personal life to the attainment of some ephemeral professional goal?  I’m not sure I have an answer that doesn’t necessitate some degree of personal sacrifice.  Now, don’t get me wrong, I am proud of the sacrifices that I have made in the name of my profession (I am PROUD to be an educator and PROUD that my administrators have such faith in me that they asked me to write one of our accreditation reports); however, I would also like to strike a balance between my work and home lives that, well, allows me to have a home life.

I know I need to socialize and I know that I need to eat better and I know that I need to get more exercise than I do . . . I know, I know, I know!  Now is the year to act on this knowledge.  Now is the time to find the balance that has alluded me.  I’m in a better place professionally and personally than I have ever been; now is the time to fine-tune thing.  To get the most out of my “better.”

Here’s to 2013!

j.

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